As It Is In Heaven...

Some times I wonder why people can not put their own judgements aside when calling themselves a "christian".
How many people know who and what they are but are afraid...is that God...fear? I feel society takes care of it's own better then the church. Granted if we are seen and not heard there is no condemnation for the reality of our own identity. So we hide in fear and trepadation for fear of being tossed from the "community" called "fellowship". They don't see the hidden tears we cry for acceptance and "true" Godly love...no they see the "label" Gay Lesbian Bi-sexual...before they look and get to know the talents and character of who we are. We have become slaves to the passions of fleshly "christs and remain in constant struggle to find a "true" community of spirituality.
Are we sinners in God's eyes? Does he see everyone not Str8 a fornication in his eyes? Are we in the last days where we are viewed as those turned into their own "fleshly" desires? Can we be "restored"? So many questions, so many answers....and in my opinion...not enough ears to hear and open hearts to love. Can we be christians and gay? the ultimate question!
There is pressure to conform..be "restored" to the str8 life, but what if it can't be then what...I become like the woman with the issue of blood...an out cast and I will only recieve my miracle when i get to heaven.
Some in the church love and remain and some can't see past the label we have "CHOSEN".
I draw weary of the fight in social organized religion and or spirituality. Maybe it's easy for you to say be yourself but what if you are paralysized by fear? So many words have filled my life it's not easy to re-think.
One thing remains, I to can open my arms wide...and I feel like I am still in hell on earth by the "fellowship of the church."
Why?

DON'T YOU TELL ME GOD IS NOT REAL

THE SET...BOMB!!!

Prayer, has no expiration date.

Ever feel little?

Have no fear....

You may be little

but you're MIGHTY with God.

I Love You Mom

This is my mom.

I love my mom, she has been an inspiration to me through out life.

Of course we can all go through life with our up's and down's but she has taught me to laugh no matter what life brings.

Her out goingness is something that has rubbed off on me and I can only say...thanks ma!

My mom is strong, beautiful and kind to all she meets and has taught me that no matter who you meet always great them with a smile. One of the things i like about my mom is that no matter the situation she is always in high spirits and smiling.

She is true example of integrity and love.

So mom...i just want to say..I love you and I appreciate all you've taught me and shown me to make me a better person. You are and have been my hero through your beauty, courage, and thoughout life.

I'm pretty sure God didn't make a mistake having you as my mom.

In fact, I highly reccomend that all kids have a mom like you to look up to in life.

So, mom, I love you forever,

your biggest fan and "baby girl"

My Nephew Is The Cutest

Joyful, Joyful Lord We Adore You

Check out the talent!
Check out the leadership qualities!
Check out the ability to let go and let God!
Check out how awesome God is...

BIG HUGS GUYS!!!
oops..and Gal!! hee hee

One Freaking Awesome Best Friend

Christa,

When I don't feel like feeling

Or trying at all

When life looks too hard

And the road seems too long

When I'm broken in a hundred pieces

And can't face one more mile

You pick me up

And put me back together

And make me smile.

You Rock!

Never Forget Where Ya Came From...

WAKE UP!!

All I can say about this group of mature bunch of "Yar-Mouthians" is...

I love these guys BIG TIME...

They all are our future,

why not invest in them...

I am!

Love you guys BIGGER!!

Relationships

So here i sit wondering how the world rotates, and how people from so many different cultures full of generational stuff and traditional stuff all can get over them selves and just exsist and cohabitate.
So there i was at a youth festival full of teens from here to there, just watching the different groups get to know each other.
At first i noticed they all stayed with who they knew and where comfortable to be around. Then there were work shops in which people with the same interests gathered, which ment breaking up the different youth groups and expanding the horizan of socialization.
It was interesting to look at as i watched with amazement just how easy it was for one thing to join a once seperated passion into a joint effort to mesh into one familiar group.
I had a relative with me, my concern was "will he be ok, will he feel left out or out of place in this new spiritual envirnment" well to my surprise the answer was clear. It didn't take him to do anything but exsist...why, you ask...well, he is handsom and well put together and my cousin to boot. So I was the middle man who was hearing how cute he was and even though i tried to make people go on their own to say hi...shyness kicked in. But as the time continued to go by it was clear to me that relationships happen in unexpected ways... sometimes it's all about letting go, standing back and watching nature take it's course.
A friend of mine once told me that "time was the fortune teller" ... I'm understanding it on a daily basis.
So let me show you the evidence...Oh, by the way...i think i was the joining force, glue if you will in getting both parties over their shyness.
check it...!

Where is the Love

I have a Dog, His name is Stanley.
I have a Cat, His name is Stuart.
Now you may be wondering what on earth i am doing telling you about my dog and cat...well it's quite simple. I love them both and i wanted to share my joy with you.
At times they are called T-Bone and Pork Chop but all in all they make me smile.
They are like a breath of fresh air. When i come home from a hard day they are always excited to meet me at the door and give me a make shift hug of their own. Now barring Stuarts attitude, depending on if he has adiquit food in his dish he strolls over as is if to say..."hey" then meets me sitting with badded breathe looking at his dish as if by a miracle it would fill itself.
How time flies. Stanley will turn 4 this year and Stuart will be 6.
They both come from broken homes. Stanley's truma was abuse and Stuarts owner died at an old age and left him to the vets. He was malnurished and had a half shaved tail and clumped furr. Stanley was the odd puppy who quivered in the back of the kennel hidding from the world. Of course that is what made me pick him out of the 8 that were there.
Just like people we at times see those who have been abused in some form or another but they seem to gravitate to the truth in us.
What truth do you have that people can see when they look into your eyes.
Will you take them home and love them back to security and health?
Jesus said. "let them come" who is "them"...ALL people no matter their wounds, no matter their story, no matter their type. He said COME TO ME AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST.
The vets called Stanley and Stuart hopeless cases and were going to put Stuart down. we came just in the nick of time to save him.
Will you do that, will you go the distance and help a stray?
Is it worth it you ask...well as far as i can tell Stuart and Stanley can't seem to get enough love. Like people they crave real love and care.
We spend alot of time with them, even though they each have their own personalities.
If you have been saved by grace why not pass it on...

Friends

Today I was thinking about my friends.
How we first met.
How they knew nothing about me but there was something that they instantly liked about me that drew them to want to get to know me, inspite of me.
I realized that i use to live in yesteryear when the "old me" was in exsistance. I didn't like me much and thought, today, what has changed for people to want to get to know me now.
At times i fall back on yesteryear and get caught up in the failures and the times i caused great pain to people. I ask myself "have i changed?".
But today I realized this... When people meet you for the first time and want to get to know you, it's not about yesteryear it's about now. Now and the beyond.
I have tried my best to follow the example of Christ but most times i fall short but I no longer allow myself to beat myself up for past mistakes, rather, I chose to learn from them and move on...
I'm sure Jesus had some times with His disciples. I'm sure they didn't see eye to eye on things. For example...why did He let there be a trader among them and do nothing or say nothing when picking out his disciples. Could he not tell his heart at the get go. Was Jesus wanting to teach Judas something? My questions are endless and may never be answered.
So, I remain at the post of my thought...People obviously see something in me that they like. For me to try and change is pointless because then i am not being who they saw in the "raw".
So, though it has taken many years of judging, not others, but myself. I refuse to do that now and love the skin i'm in and rock on!
So to all my "Friends"...thanks for seeing something in me to want to join lives even when I don't see what you see.
I am honoured to call you all...my Friend!

I love little feet...